lost in a fog
Sooooo it's been rather a rollar coaster these past few days. I feel like someone peeled off all my skin and there I am exposed-- every wisp of breeze sends shocks of pain through hundreds of nerve endings... yes sorry-- lovely image im sure but yeah that's kinda how it's been. Parly I think I'm just rather overstressed I mean after all I really haven't had much time to just stop-- and why should I? I'm doing 15 upperlevel units and working 16 hrs a week-- and I like it-- it's just a bit much at times. That's the reason college doesn't last forever. But yeah... still feeling fragile and subsequently rather introverted. b...uuuu...tttt.... yeah what can ya do? One of my study partners in PIL's roomate is going to Prague for spring semester-- I was telling her about it and yeah-- whooosh came the memories! dude I wish I had never come back. sigh. anyways ummm should get to bed. :)... sweet dreams all .
such labels should come in human-size--I swear there would be a market for them. Sometimes people just aren't going to treat you nicely-- and that's ok... some people will insist that whether or not you ask for photo ID, whether or not you check "thebackforyoursignaturepleasethanksyou"--- you are doing it wrong...but that's also ok. And some people will always be shocked that you weren't able to find that book by that guy and it has a green cover-- ma'am if everyone has heard of it then WHY DON'T YOU REMEMBER THE NAME OR AT LEAST WHAT IT'S ABOUT??? --- but that's even still ok. It' s alright to explain for the kajillionth time B. Dalton and Barnes and Nobles are the same company we merged about 15 years ago. That's right sir. I don't know sir what rock have you been hiding under and does your wife know? (ok last part most of the time I leave that off) and yes I didn't know the two were the same company until I was hired...STILL could they at least coordinate a varied response-- inevitably it's "Barnes and NOBLES? But Isn't this B. Dalton?" with the iplication being that maybe I was joking--maybe, just maybe I'll be like "This is B. Dalton? NO WAY!!!???" but yes, even when this exchange occurs during 75% of your transactions...that's ok too. In fact it all is manageable-- and even laughable-- except when you feel like you're dying on the inside already... then it's just an irritant. Like someone decided it would be fun to tickle a dying man's toes with a feather. And after a day of this a warning sign is needed...followed up by that police-line stuff to cordon off that corner in the witchcraft section where the idiot wanna-be gayesque kid asked me "but are they realreal witchcraft books" and I had to demonstrate their power.
Soooo... in 12 hours my first round of midterms will officially be over-- that's right-- my first was sept 26th and now it's the 12th of oct. gotta love jr year.
So
"Hold MeI am terrified of all things.Frightened of the dark.I am.You are
taller than a mountain.Deeper than the sea.You are.Hold me.Hold me.Take me with
you 'cause I'm lonely.I was closer to you back then.I was happier.I was.You are
fading further from me.Why don't you come home to me?Hold me.Hold me.Take me
with you 'cause I'm lonely.I am...I am...Cold.Hold Me.[solo]Hold me.Hold me.Take
me with you 'cause I'm lonely.Hold me.Hold me.Take me with you 'cause I'm
lonely.Hold me.Hold me."
Midterm was HARD. Didn't study nearly enough to really ace it. Hoping though that I'll get a grade that won't be too bad and then will ace all other assignments. Have to keep reminding myself that its the first test of the semester and while I knew the format I didn't really "know" so... Ok relax I'm human.
said my roomate just now with a wierd look on her face.